Rubber Jonny

So, my first post. What do I write about? It’s got to be giving up smoking. It just so happens that today is my first day of giving up.

I (was) a 20-40 a day man so it’s definitely going to be tough but I know I can do it this time.  Every time before I’ve tried to give up I’ve been really panicked and worried about it.  I don’t feel like that this time. It’s different.

I don’t think any of my mates think I’ll do it but I can’t blame ’em, I’ve always smoked more than anyone else you know. I reckon that if I do manage it, it could spur on some of my other mates to do it. “If Jon can give up then so can I” kind of thing.

Big up Kirsty for giving up with me and everyone who has to put up with me in the near future. Particularly Chris who has to sit next to me. He’ll probably be chuffed that I don’t stink of smoke anymore but pissed off that I’ll be whinging all the time.  Still, he’s pretty used to me whining and we haven’t fallen out for a while now so could be ok.

So how am I doing it this time?  I’ve tried the champix (varenicline) last time and that made me seriously suicidal.  Now I’m not a depressive kind of guy but holy shit - talk about wanting to end it all.  The scary thing was that I didn’t realise that it was the champix.  You don’t really notice it’s effect and it sneaks up on you.  I did give up for 3 months but I’ve never been so down in my life.  I only realised when I stopped taking champix and all of a sudden, everything was back to normal.

So, this time I thought I’d try the patches, gum, inhilator….anything I can get my hands on and see how I get on.  I’m currently wearing a patch and tuggin on an inhilator whilst writing this post. Helps me focus - lol. Bring on the smoke free nicotine addiction….. 

Anyway, day one…..everyone around me is still alive, still love my wife and I’m hungry. Holy shit, I am getting off ciggys. Finally…Wish me luck.

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